5th March 2014
today i ran against the wind,
it is my life, going against the grain,
fighting, just fighting,
to be nothing of the same.
sameness.. sameness is sanity,
and i am comforted by chaos,
by colour,
by sound,
by movement.
clashing is the sound,
the beat of my heart,
it is not one but a circle,
of drumming, of thumping,
and i dance,
i dance.
i want to shatter the rose coloured glass,
that you my friends, you live behind.
i want to combust,
in a spur of the moment,
into iridescence,
and cover the world in light.
pain, so much pain,
but i will try to love it all away.
i am a child of the earth,
but i am not of this world.
my father, do you know Him?
he loves you too.
you may not hear me,
but one day you will.
so for now, i dance.
i dance.